Ten years ago, our lives were swept up in a whirlwind of positive change. We were completely different individuals, each with our unique ways of doing things and distinct thoughts. I was deeply immersed in my role as a dedicated stay-at-home mom, gracefully navigating the beautiful chaos of family life. It’s almost unbelievable that my best friend had not yet become a cherished part of my world. At that time, my writing journey was just beginning, fueled by boundless passion and potential as I enthusiastically delved into the world of storytelling and self-expression. Jamie and Robert were vibrant souls, illuminating our lives with their infectious energy and unwavering friendship, with their knowledge and their wisdom. I miss them a lot. My small circle of friends formed a tapestry of support and love, with each person contributing to the rich fabric of my life and providing invaluable companionship. Things quickly changed when I did, but that’s another story. And for tonight, it is not worth telling. I ardently championed undiscovered musicians, recognizing their immeasurable talent and fully believing in their ability to conquer the world through the power of their music. Who were we back then, in that remarkable chapter of our lives? That woman from ten years ago seems so distant from who I am now. I was so naive, knowing so little outside my bubble. In fact, I was just taking the first steps to recovery, working on my mental health and getting to know myself.
And look where we are now! And who we are! What an incredible difference a decade makes! I wouldn’t want to go back, I can tell you that. I cherish the present and the amazing individuals in my life. While I wouldn’t wish for the return of certain friendships, I would do anything to have Jamie and Robert with us once more, that’s for sure. My best friend – I cherish our bond immensely and am grateful for his presence in my life. Sometimes, I reflect on how life may have seemed simpler for me personally a decade ago. Nonetheless, I adore my life. Immensely. I am grateful for where I am and who I have become today. I wouldn’t change a thing, as every experience has contributed to shaping the person I am today, with all the beautiful imperfections and valuable lessons learned along the way.
Truthfully, this post was inspired by a musician who once contemplated deleting his entire music history due to self-doubt. I want to emphasize that both Martyn Jackson and Orellana are truly worth your attention if you have an affinity for this kind of music, and I was glad to see them put their music back up. A decade ago, I fervently supported this artist, and my admiration remains unwavering to this day. What can I say? Loyalty has its place, and so does a deep appreciation for talent, music, and life. And now that Martyn has put his music back on Bandcamp, a few steps down memory lane are allowed for sure.
Where were you ten years ago?
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musing/thoughts – 511 words – reading time: 3 minutes
reflections of an unquiet mind 
I got an email message today that Orellana had re-released some music on Bandcamp. I can only imagine the crippling self doubt musicians experience, as I’ve had several decide to delete music they’d previously asked me to review – which though I feel for them, also really pisses me off, especially after I’d taken the time to write a positive and even glowing review of their music.
10 years ago I was just a regular middle-aged guy who liked and listened to music. I started posting songs I liked on Facebook, even going so far to create a music lover’s group, but the response was tepid at best. Finally, a friend suggested that I start a music blog, and I both want to kiss and slap him!
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“kiss and slap him” made me laugh, but I understand. I am glad that you followed the advice though.
As for the reviews, I can relate to your feelings. It’s a waste of time for everyone involved if their music gets deleted or unpublished after reviews have been written. Not to mention that it is disrespectful too. You need a sense of pride when you release your art even if you doubt yourself, why else share it in the first place?
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Exactly!
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