Album 3/10

And already you know the drill. 10 days, 10 album covers. No explanations. If you want to take part in the challenge, please consider yourself nominated.

Album 2/10

I was nominated to take part in a ten-day challenge. Every day, I will share the cover of an album that changed my life or helped shape me into the person I am today. No explanations will be given, but questions are allowed.

Song of the Day (Thursday)

The Cure – trust

 

From the album “Wish” released in 1992.

There’s no-one left in the world
That I can hold onto
There is really no-one left at all
There is only you
And if you leave me now
You leave all that we were
Undone
There is really no-one left
You are the only one
And still the hardest part for you
To put your trust in me
I love you more than I can say
Why won’t you just believe?
Lyrics by the Cure.
I love the Cure. Not everything, but most. “Pictures of You” is another favourite. Trivial fact: both my favourite albums of The Cure aren’t on Spotify: “wish” and “bloodflowers”
It is 9:25 in the morning, and my mood is not the best. My shoulder hurts, and my mind does too.
I am irritated and really not ready to face the world today. But the house is filled with people and I don’t have anywhere to hide.
xx
Cathy
If you need me, a chat, a distraction… I am here and you can find me on my social media channels. Don’t hesitate to get in touch. ❤

Album Cover Challenge

My good friend Ollie invited me to take part in a challenge. In the next ten days, I will share a picture of an album cover daily. These records changed my life and made helped shaping the person I am today. There will be no explanation, but questions are allowed.

Let’s begin.

Ollie is a great writer and beautiful soul. Take a look at his writing here:

https://picosgemeos.livejournal.com/

And follow his twitter and Instagram:

Check out Ollie (@olliefern): https://twitter.com/olliefern?s=09

https://instagram.com/olliefern?igshid=u9sruwd1f7gi

xx

Song of the Day (Wednesday)

Lambert – sweet apocalypse

This piece is from an album with the same name. Sweet Apocalypse, 2017. Lambert is a German composer who is only ever seen wearing a mask.

As I mentioned before, I am writing a lot these days and today, I chose piano music to keep me company. I am listening to a playlist on Spotify called Atmospheric Piano.

I hope you are all well, I am busy busy busy. I am writing on my novel, there is some writing (and thinking) that has to be done for work. I am on leave because of the kids, but I offered my help anyway. And, I was asked to write a review for an album that should be released by the end of the month.

How are you keeping busy?

 

Song of the Day (Tuesday)

solstafir – fjara

 

This Iclandic band released the album Svatir Sandar in 2011 (Season of Mist). Fjara means Beach. I chose this video over the original, because of the translated lyrics. They are quite poetic in places. I remember that I saw this band live around the time this was released. They were drunk before they got on stage, drank more while they were playing a weird set – as if they were playing together for the first time in ages, and then they staggered off stage. They left a lasting impression.

I hope you are well… I am productive these days and was working a lot on my novel. There are only 34 more pages to edit, but I keep adding paragraphs and noticing plotholes. I have some work to do. And after I am done with that, I need to revise the entire document again, because I am quite sure that there are still many spelling mistakes or missing words left.

big hugs

Cathy

Song of the Day (Monday)

Her Name is Calla – meridian arc

 

This song is taken from an album called Navigator, released in 2014 via Function Records. You can support these artist via bandcamp, although it needs to be said that the band dismembered in 2019. Very well worth your time, and it is not the first (nor the last) time that I will mention them and share their music.

Meridian Arc is the ring tone on my phone.

So, it is Monday and the first day of a general lock down in Luxembourg. Schools and care facilities are closed, as well as bars, restaurants and anything from gyms to saunas, libraries and museums. It feels weird. Tension is palpable all around.

I admit, my anxiety is rising, and this, although I have been on kind of self-isolation and I have been social distancing since the beginning of the month. My shoulder has kept me away from everything, but it felt more like a choice. This feels a bit like being trapped in my walls, even though we are allowed (and encouraged) to take walks and go out – while keeping 2 metres of distance between us and the next person. It all feels surreal.

Last night, I took a walk. It was dark and quiet. Usually, there are many cars around and I am not living far from the Luxembourgish airport, there is always the backdrop noise of a plane. Yesterday, the silence was eerie. Again, it added to my inner tension. Perhaps, I have seen too many movies with a post-apocalyptic scenario. Our government is asking people to show solidarity with everyone. For now, it seems to be working. I am just wondering if it stays the same in a week or two. Money will become an issue for many (us included) and I guess after a while, everyone will be fighting for themselves. We are navigating towards an economical crisis, and I hope that people who are smarter than me will find a way to come out of it with as less damage as possible. Cathy the pessimist?

The weather is good, the sun is shining. Spring is coming. It is as if nature is waking up and society is going to sleep.

How is the situation developing where you are? How does it make you feel? Personally, I don’t know a person who is infected – or tested positive. How about you? Did you buy in bulk? (I didn’t and it is beginning to enhance my anxiety too, although our prime minster stressed yet again, that there will be no shortage of supplies anytime soon.) What are your plans to navigate this? For me, for now, it is to stay put and follow the rules and recommendations as best as I can.

The future is filled with uncertainty. The only thing that I am sure of is, that after Corona, nothing will ever be the same.

Cathy

Song of the Day (Saturday)

Editors – ocean of night

This song is taken from the album In Dream, released in 2015.

I hope you are all well and are surviving this pandemic in the best way you can. Take care of yourself and your loved ones.

As for me personally, I won’t be at work for at least two weeks. Schools are closed and parents are allowed to stay with their children. The kids are home-schooled during this time, with content and support coming daily via email or WhatsApp groups. I hope we can muster enough discipline to get this done the right way.

For the time being, I am not allowed to visit my mother. She is in a care facility because of her multiple sclerosis. It is a weird feeling. I haven’t visited in a very long time. She is vulnerable and at risk of contracting the virus. If she does, I am almost certain that she will not survive. It’s an unsettling feeling.

But through it all, I also feel quite calm and confident that everything will be okay.

I’ll end this post with links to previous posts. I’d like you to read them. Not because they are important or anything, but because I like them.

Mystery Blogger Award

Friday 13th

If you need someone to talk, to distract you or just to rant and vent, or banter, I am always there.

xx

Mystery Blogger Award


Rules:

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

 

Truth be told, when Bill Fonda nominated me for this award, I had no idea what it is. I clicked myself through a couple of links and found rules and questions, and I saw a community of awesome bloggers. I feel honoured to be asked to be a part of this. Thank you, Bill.

So… What is the Mystery Blogger Award?

Mystery Blogger Award is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging, and they do it with so much love and passion.
Okoto Enigma

 

3 things about myself

  • I hate nominating people because it makes those feel bad who are not nominated
  • My poetry and short stories are fiction 87% of the time
  • This week, I googled “how to answer to the question ‘who are you’?” because I never know how to respond and end up stating facts about me, but not who I am. Example: my name is Cathy, I am 37; from Luxembourg; working at a nursery… Those are facts, but these things don’t define me.

 

Bill’s questions:

1. Be honest … before coronavirus, how often did you wash your hands for more than 20 seconds at a time? Honestly? Several times daily. I work at a nursery, and hygiene is very important when taking care of babies and toddlers.

2. Who is the most-famous person you’ve ever interacted with? Tell us about what happened. I had to think about this one for a while. I listen to lots of music, and maybe I consider someone famous who is not known by people who don’t know the artist. I decided to mention the one who has the most followers on social media. Nathan Maingard. For a while, I felt quite connected with this artist, with his music and the way he saw the world. He interacted with his supporters and fans a lot, and he had a group of people who became friends through his music, and because of the way he shared parts of his journey. It was enlightening. Nothing special happened, just connection. But, I admit, I was very proud, and a little bit embarrassed when he read one of my poems on a live stream. That was special. Thank you, Nathan.

 

3. What’s one article or blog post you read over and over again? Please provide a link. This will be a short answer: none.

 

4. What’s the best blog you read? I don’t read too many blogs at the moment, but here are some I often read:

 

5. Why? No more than that, just … why? If I only knew, but I don’t. I often wonder about this too. Why? Sometimes, I think it is the worst question we can ask. Are we even prepared to hear the answer? Do we really want to know? When my kids ask me “why?”, and the answer is non-negotiable, my answer is always the same: ” because I said so, that’s why.” But often, yes I admit, I have no clue why.

 

Nominations:

I nominate all the people mentioned above, but I would also love to hear everyone else’s answers to the questions in the comments. Now, I know that most readers are silent readers, be brave – speak up. 💜

 

Questions:

  1. Do you remember when we first interacted? Remind me, please.
  2. What is the most important quality a person needs in this day and age?
  3. Who cares?
  4. If you look back on your life, what would you do exactly the way you did it before?
  5. What is happiness?

 

And last but not least, links to my best posts. This is hard for me, I am a tough critic, and it is hard to say which posts deserve to be shared again. But here goes:

The Busker is a short story that was initially written in 2013 and that I polished and reposted last week. I remember when I first shared it, there was someone who left an amazing comment, and I had to take a screenshot. (It took me a while, but I found it in the mess of pictures on my phone)

Bicycle Randomness – I like making lists. I am often struggling with my mental health, and compiling lists about myself helps me to get in touch with my inner self again.

Found This blog is about my struggles and thoughts. But it is also home to my poetry. I self-published two books which are available on Amazon worldwide and on my blog. I am proud of them. I dreamt about publishing for a long while until I realised that I didn’t need to wait for someone to discover me – with self-publishing, I had fate in my own hands, and I grabbed it with both fists.

 

I shared three very different posts, and I did it intentionally. There is a lot to discover on this blog—lots of words, but also lots of music. I hope you enjoyed all of this. ❤

Lots of love to you. Stay safe and kind and healthy,

Cathy

Friday 13th

Once Corona is done with us, we will all be fat from eating only pasta and watching Netflix, and we will be clad in toilet paper because we were bored during our (self-imposed-)quarantine.

All jokes aside, in Luxembourg, the government decided to close schools and nurseries and cancel every other activity for kids for two weeks or until further notice. This doesn’t mean that the kids don’t have to learn, because they all got schedules and homework. With email and WhatsApp groups, the kids and teachers and parents will be in touch and work together. Like a home office. Visits at the hospital or care homes are forbidden. Most concerts or theaters or different cultural events are canceled… Until the end of March (for now). And even though supermarkets will not be out of stock anytime soon, people are hoarding and emptying shelves. Funnily, I saw a pic of the ‘beverage’ department. It was empty, apart from the Corona beer. People are stupid.

I am not downplaying this pandemic, but I do think that if people were less selfish and egocentric, there would be enough for everyone. Instead, people are buying huge piles of soap or toilet paper, and those who need some are left empty-handed. Also… We are told to wash our hands and watch our hygiene, how can we do that when there is no soap left because one person bought so much it will last them for years? And… Is it news that we should wash our hands regularly with soap? I mean, isn’t that common knowledge? Will a bar of soap be worth more than a bar of gold in the near future?

In times like this, it becomes clear that we are selfish and greedy, and we lose all sense of kindness and humanity. Compassion is sparse as it is in today’s society; let’s not erase and forget this virtue in the wake of a virus infection that will probably affect many many people. (I wrote 70% of the world population, but that’s not a fact I checked.)

Stepping off my…?! Hm… I didn’t buy any soap and only have 9 rolls of toilet paper left!

Stepping off my plush carpet.

Be safe, be kind. Stay healthy, and take good care of you and yours.

xx

PS: And as I am sitting here on my bed, checking this post for mistakes, I look outside the window and see a big and bright rainbow (and a more faint one right next to it). There is beauty and all of this. Seek for it.

101 things I dislike

Throwback to 2016 when I wrote this list. It’s been a long time, and I updated it somewhat — not a lot.

Can you relate?

Without fear of being judged (read: with near panic like fear of being judged) I will try to come up with 101 things I don’t like.

1. The colour orange

2. Flying

3. The cold weather

4. Snow

5. Chocolate

6. Ketchup

7. Christmas songs and decorations in November

8. Waiting

9. Being ordered around

10. People who don’t say thank you

11. Rude people

12. Unanswered questions

13. Lemon

14. birds

15. Feathers

16. The sound of my alarm clock

17. Being tickled

18. Being taken for granted

19. Negative people

20. Emotional vampires

21. Instruments that are out of tune

22. Cocky people

23. Jealousy

24. Drivers not setting the turn signal

25. Wondering if my English is good enough and if others understand what I am trying to say

26. Doubting myself

27. People who make lots of noise when they are eating (!! Important one)

28. Fruit

29. Killing animals – even flies

30. Not being taken seriously

31. People who aren’t getting the job done right

32. Belching

33. The smell of vomit

34. Touching door handles in public spaces

35. Not seeing anything at a concert

36. Payment declined – for no reason

37. Forgetting my pin code

38. Water touching my ears (anything touching my ears)

39. Swimming

40. Crowds

41. Ignorance

42. The smell of cold smoke

43. Sprite or any sweet beverage

44. Anything bitter

45. Having a stuffed nose

46. Being surprised

47. Offering presents

48. Shopping for clothes

49. Animals

50. Meat

51. Saying goodbye

52. Deadlines

53. Gory horror movies

54. Going to church

55. Thinking about negative things

56. Mess left by the kids after eating nuts or grains

57. Jazz

58. Musicals

59. Long fingernails

60. Not having enough sleep

61. Chanel no 5

62. Visiting a home for disabled people

63. The sound of chalk on a blackboard

64. Expensive rents or mortgages

65. Working in a garden

66. Sketching, drawing, painting

67. Pens that aren’t working

68. Coffee with sugar

69. My double chin

70. Milk

71. Hairy feet

72. Star wars

73. Harry Potter

74. Lord of the rings

75. The way eyes itch from allergies

76. Almonds and nuts

77. Bread (with the exception of French baguette)

78. No toilet paper when I am on the loo

79. Autocorrect

80. Forgetting to save my work when I just wrote 500+ words

81. 0 likes on stories or poems I thought turned out great; 21 likes on mediocre poems or stories

82. Questions with obvious answers

83. Gossip

84. Talking bad behind someone’s back

85. Losing track of people who once were an important part of my life

86. Wasting time (mine and the time of others too)

87. Forgetting things

88. Broken promises

89. Being unable to speak straight sentences lately (stuttering, not finding the right words)

90. Dentists

91. Being late (me or people being late)

92. Being intense

93. Migraines

94. Fishing for more things I dislike

95. No network or wifi

96. Social media knows everything about us (bye bye Facebook)

97. Being watched while crying

98. Being stared at

99. Not knowing how other people are seeing me

100. Oranges

101. That I found 100 things I dislike…

Are you surprised? Why? Now, what do you think?