I am looking at a black screen, trying to add white letters to make the background more bearable. I don’t like the dark or black, but I am often stuck in the darkness of my mind and I wear almost exclusively black clothes. Except for underwear and shoes. Yes, it is odd, but I like sexy lingerie in different colours and my shoes – well, most days I wear All Stars, and I own many pairs of those. That said, I recently noticed that I own too many shoes. Yes, I am a woman, and yes, it is possible to own too many pairs of shoes. Honestly, the first time I noticed it was when I fractured my toe. I needed shoes with lots of toe space and flat heels. And since I have too many shoes to choose from, it was not easy to find the right pair. And even now, three weeks after the fall, I still haven’t worn heels, and shoes with hard soles make me very aware of my toes. See? This is how my mind works. I share these very important snippets about me. No one should care about those but they spill out of me without much reason at all. Weird, funny, and stupid.
What else is stupid? Me trying to write for ten minutes straight. For a couple of days I made a conscious effort to use a different vocabulary when writing. But my vocabulary is limited and I keep going back to the words and expressions I know. I seek comfort in the things I know. It’s true, I have a way with words. I know that. (Conceited much?!) Well, most times. Often, I overthink and wonder if I am expressing myself correctly. I would hate to hurt anyone due to limited vocabulary.
My thoughts are all over the place… Music is on my mind.
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musings – 312 words – reading time: 2 minutes
reflections of an unquiet mind 