music march 6/31

Mogwai – take me somewhere nice

From the album Rock Action (2001)

Tonight I will do something that I haven’t done in a while. Share too much.

A wave of nausea rose. My heart started beating too fast. My hands were clammy and trembling. I couldn’t breathe. There was no air. Not for me. Just emotions everywhere. And they covered me like a weighted blanket—too heavy to shake off, too much to bear.

This hasn’t happened in a long while. Not like this. But I couldn’t stop it. I couldn’t prevent it.

And when I was finally able to breathe, I started crying. My entire body shook. I felt so cold. And I cried and I cried and I cried—until there was nothing left. Until I was empty.

I shut down. Completely. And while the blanket was lifted, it was replaced with a veil of numbness—a quiet exhaustion. Nothing mattered at all. Everything mattered too much. And I was standing in the storm, blown away in different directions.

That’s why I chose Mogwai’s Take Me Somewhere Nice today. It exists in that space after everything has already happened. It doesn’t ask for much, doesn’t force emotion. It just drifts, like I do now. Waiting for something to feel real again.

Tomorrow is a new day

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