No sense

And just like that
Without thinking
I pulled back
Until I was
Alone
In my little bubble
Again.

Comfortable
In a silence I
Despised,
Fearing that
It would become
A constant
In my life.

But
There was nothing
To be done,
Nothing to change
Because it was
All in my head
All in my mind.

I longed
For you to be there
For you to love me
For you to recognize me
I longed
For our souls
To touch in the most intimate way.

And I hoped
And I hoped
And I hoped.
But
Everything stayed the same
Because I did not allow you
To visit me in my dreams.

Silence
Deafening silence
Driving me
Insane
When all I ever wanted
Was
You.