This October is the best and worst month in a while.
How so? Why the best? Why the worst?
The worst because I am in constant pain – apart from one week between 15th and 21th.
Corona… Numbers are up up up, and for the first time since this pandemic started people I know are infected/affected.
Self-doubt that will lead to self-sabotage and self-harm if I don’t find a way to stop it.
The best because things are happening in my life right now. And I am in charge. So maybe this month is life-changing on every level.
There is lots of music, a little love, friendship, and reasons to believe in my skills and talents.
I spent an incredible weekend abroad. And I am torn between wanting/needing a repeat and letting it fade out for friendship’s sake.
Yesterday was my first day at work after a bit more than 3 weeks away. Parents were thinking of me… I had my locker filled with chocolates and a unique mug made for me.
So, anyway… I feel a bit fragile, I must say. But also confident that everything happens for a reason, even if I don’t understand or see the big picture.