Throwback Poetry – my biggest secret

You are my greatest escape
my biggest secret
giving, never taking
For you, I feel my love growing
and my despair too

don’t forget me
don’t ignore me
my heart couldn’t bear the loss

I don’t want to be like them
I allow you to see me
and to love me
but I shouldn’t
I am not free

don’t forget me
don’t ignore me
my heart couldn’t bear the loss

you are my biggest secret
the man who makes me rise above every doubt and fear
I dream of you and I want you
until reality comes crushing down on me
and I fall

don’t forget me
don’t ignore me
my heart couldn’t bear the loss

I don’t want to be hurt
but I’m hurting you
I am not free
but I love you
and yet, I shouldn’t

don’t forget me
don’t ignore me
losing you would break me.

(March 2014)

Author’s Note…
Every Thursday I browse my body of work to see what I wrote this time a couple of years ago. Today, I am choosing to share this particular piece. Why? It reads like a premonition. Years later, after this poem was long erased from my thoughts and mind, things happened in my life that could make even myself believe that the poem was non-fiction; but when this was written, it was complete fiction. Life imitates art. And he ignores me. I am not sure if he will ever be able to forget me – after all, I am unforgettable.