You are there, but you are not

I am there but I am not

Just pretending, that’s what I do a lot.

I lost most of me

I will never be free.

It would be easier to give up

To have it all stop

But I am not

I do my crying in the rain

Never showing my pain

But if I do I feel weak

It’s hard for me to speak.

I am not a part of their lives

Nobody’s wife

Forever trapped in this maddening circle