Everything happens for a reason…

I do believe in this saying. Maybe it’s just a way to cope with things that are happening and we don’t have an explanation, or maybe it’s just a huge pile of bullshit. (I apologise for my language, I seem to swear a lot lately.)

I mentioned the new job? Well, it’s already over again. Too many things weren’t right and I decided to leave the daycare centre for children after not even a week. The kids were great, the house was really nice. It were the people and the way they chose to work with the children that was so far removed from my own work-ethics, there was no way of finding common ground. I am a fan of children’s laughter. I like to see them jump and run and play and sing. I am not a fan of having everything strictly timed and organised. I don’t like to be used because of my language skills or diploma either and I refuse to work only 1/3 of the hours that were advertised. Working with children isn’t always just fun, it can be dangerous too and an insurance is needed. For yourself and the boss. The insurance usually is made by the boss and is effective from the moment you sign your employment contract. I was asked to wait to sign said contract for another 2 or 3 weeks. During that time, I wouldn’t have been cover by the insurance, I wouldn’t have been paid either, but I would have done the work and they would have had someone to teach the children the things they advertise on their web site and their Facebook page.

3 days and I gave up. This afternoon I was in tears about it. It just got to me that much. I have doubts, of course I have. Did I give up too quickly. Should I have sucked it up and try to change things. But how am I supposed to change things when I only work 3 hours a day?!

And since I believe that everything happens for a reason, I am convinced that these last days, I was reminded of how awesome it is to get up in the morning, get in the car and drive to work. I want to do that. I want to work and maybe my own kids will have to spent some more time in day care facilities too, but it will be good. If I find something I love and I am sure that I will, then it will be worth it.

I am good in my job. Maybe I am not as creative as others when it comes to crafting and stuff, but I can do other things really well. And my calm nature is something the children and kids like too.

I am not giving up, even if I gave up on that place.

 

xx

Cathy