Opening a new door

written by me – Cathy T

 

you slam the door

I watch it close

I understand and pray, that you’ll come back and open it again.

but you don’t.

 

I stay alone

 

How will I tell my friends, that we are not ‘we’ anymore?

forever is a long long time

and it finally caught up on us

no second chances, no apologies, no forgiving

 

this closed door won’t open again

 

this love has died

 

and we can’t kiss it alive again

It hurts, I won’t lie

but I understand

and I accept.

 

This is me now

 

I am not a part of a ‘we’ anymore

simply me

It feels strange to feel free

It feels different, but I feel the same I did before

 

This love wasn’t meant  to fall apart

and yet, we couldn’t save it

maybe we were too young – fifteen years ago

maybe we changed too much – but not together

 

This door is going to stay shut

 

I have the memories of a good past

and the hope for a good future

 

I take a new chance and open a new door

only a tiny crack at first

this is all I can give for now

but maybe, just maybe, a new ‘you’ will fit in and teach me how to open doors again.