The answer is no

The love in my heart for you burns ever so bright,

A flame that tempts me to give in to desire.

Yet reason prevails, for to act would not be right –

Our precious bond, I cannot bear to let it expire.

The answer is No, yet my heart still overflows

With feelings that long to be freely expressed.

But to risk all we share, that connection that glows –

A friendship so dear, it must be treasured, not stressed.

This choice cuts me deep, a bittersweet ache,

To deny what my heart so desperately craves.

Yet our bond, our trust, I can never forsake –

That connection, a treasure no romance can replace.

So I’ll hold back these feelings, keep them safely concealed,

Preserving the gift of the bond we’ve revealed.

For your friendship, my friend, is a treasure more dear

Than any romance that could ever appear.

The in-between

We stand at the edge, hearts pounding in sync,

Drawn to the heat of a connection so rare.

The warmth between us beckons, daring us to drink

From this cup of affection – yet doubt lingers there.

For we are more than friends, but less than lovers bound,

Suspended in a liminal space, afraid to take the leap.

The familiar safety of friendship surrounds,

While the unknown abyss of romance lies deep.

I gaze into your eyes, searching for a sign

-Do you feel this electric tension, this unspoken desire?

The precipice before us seems to blur the line,

Tempting us to abandon caution, to ignite the fire.

Yet the fear of losing what we already share

Holds us back from surrendering to love’s sweet embrace.

Must we forever remain in this in-between lair?

Or will we find the courage to fall into grace?

The choice is ours, the moment pregnant with potential

-To leap into the unknown, or remain safely apart.

The precipice awaits, our hearts the only essential

-Will we take the plunge and unite body, mind and heart?

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This poem was written out of this: https://micqu.org/2024/08/02/untitled_20240802/

Where do the words live?

As I run my fingers along the spines of the books lining my shelves, I’m struck by a profound sense of gratitude and accomplishment. It’s been a long, winding journey to get to this point, but seeing the physical manifestation of my creativity is an emotional experience I never could have imagined.

The feeling is almost indescribable – the weight of the paperbacks, the crisp pages, the cover designs. It’s as if I can literally reach out and touch the culmination of years’ worth of late nights, self-doubt, and perseverance. Each book represents a pivotal chapter in my evolution as a writer, a storyteller, and an artist.

I remember the first time I held one of my published works. The scent of fresh ink and paper in my nose as I opened it for the first time. In that moment, all of the moments of feeling lost or uncertain – they all melted away. I was overcome with a profound sense of pride and purpose. This was real. This was tangible. This was mine.

Of course, the journey hasn’t been without its challenges. There have been times when the blank page has taunted me, when the weight of expectation has felt crushing, when I’ve questioned whether I have what it takes. But in those moments, I’ve tried to stay grounded in my “why” – the deep, intrinsic drive to share my voice and connect with readers around the world on a profound level.

And now, as I gaze upon this growing collection of my written and published words, I realise that these books represent not just my stories, but pieces of my heart and soul. They are witness of my creativity, and the transformative potential of the written word.

Thank you, dear readers, for your support. Whether you’ve bought a copy of my books (and I could name you all, as it’s not many) or you’re one of the many silent readers of my daily blog posts, your engagement means the world to me.

As I look at the collection of my books arranged in chronological order on the shelves (as seen on the picture), you may notice that there are 9 books in the picture, even though I currently only sell 8. That’s because the one at the bottom of the stack was written under an alias. It contained numerous writing and formatting errors, so I took it off the market myself. I consider that book a trial run – a learning experience that taught me what not to do.

Moving forward, I plan to ensure all of my future publications match the size and style of “Heart of Stone” or “WORD THIEF” for a more cohesive aesthetic. Seeing the shelves filled with my work fills me with a sense of pride. The sheer volume of words I’ve written and continue to produce daily is something I would have never expected like this. These days, my creative process is fueled by inspiring music, reading, and the practice of learning new chords on the ukulele.

Yet, this constant creative outpouring also leaves me with many unanswered questions. Where do these words come from? Where are they stored when I fall silent? Are they coloured in hues of my voice? And is it as loud and clear as I intend it to be? Or is this all just a futile attempt to leave a trace of myself on the world? The truth is, I don’t have definitive answers. What I do have is an unwavering passion for words and a drive to create meaningful, well-crafted content poems and posts. Whether I possess true talent as a writer is not for me to judge. I’ll simply keep pouring my heart into this craft, and trusting the process.

If you’d like to join me on this literary journey, I invite you to follow this blog and explore my collection of books, available now. Your support and readership mean the world to me, and I’m excited to continue sharing my voice with you. Together, let’s explore the power of the written word and all the possibilities it holds.

The journey continues, and I can’t wait to see where it leads us next.

Sunrise Embrace

The moon, kissed by the sun, its heart aglow,
Reluctantly bids farewell, a lover unwilling to depart.
Its silvery light slowly fades, a bittersweet dance,
As the sun's golden rays begin to ascend.
The sun, in fiery, passionate sway,
Rises to claim the masterpiece divine.
Painting the sky in vibrant hues,
Chasing the shadows of night away.
Bade the moon farewell, in one final caress,
As the sky awakens, a symphony of colors.
Crimson and amber, violet and blue,
A breathtaking display for the world to behold.
Filled with the hope the sunrise's golden rays bestow,
A new day dawns, brimming with wonder and promise anew.
The earth stirs, stretching towards the warming light,
Eager to welcome all that the day will bring.
The warmth that only love's tender touch can,
Envelops the world in its gentle embrace.
Bathed in the glow of the morning light,
The earth is reborn, a masterpiece of endless grace.
New life blossoms, flowers unfurling their petals,
Birds take flight, their song a joyous melody.
All creation awakens, renewed and refreshed,
Basking in the glory of a new day dawned.

Simple and Profound: Me

The most read poem on the blog:

I decided to share the above poem again because it holds a special place in my heart. As I browsed the stats today, I was pleasantly surprised to see that there has been a surge in views on the blog recently. And while I was browsing and reading, I noticed that the poem above has garnered the most reads ever. This reaffirms my belief in the power of simplicity and the beauty of brevity. It’s fascinating to see how this simple, short poem has resonated with so many people, making it clear that sometimes the most straightforward works hold the most profound impact.

The most viewed post about music:

I wrote a lot about music and the meaning of it in my life. It is a bit of a surprise that over the years this has become the most read or viewed post about music. Still, I like it though. By the way, both Cavanagh brothers came out with new music this week. Both collaborated with Daniel Cardoso and both songs couldn’t be any more different. Weather Systems’s track truly captures the essence of emotional and powerful music. The track “do angels sing like rain” is a masterpiece that takes the listener on a journey through the depths of human emotions. On the other hand, The Radicant’s EP “We Ascend” is a bold step into experimental and boundary-pushing music. The mesmerizing and intricate sounds in the title track leave a lasting impression. The diversity of these projects showcases the incredible range of the artists involved. It’s truly fascinating how artists can explore such different musical territories. If you haven’t already, give both artists a listen, they deserve it.

The most read short story:

The original piece, penned back in 2014, still resonates with me today as I revisit it on this very site. It’s fascinating to look back on a piece that captures a different time in my life. Reflecting on it now, it’s clear that those stories played a crucial role in shaping my growth as a writer and helped me tap into the depths of my creative reservoir. They were instrumental in guiding me towards discovering and nurturing the poet within.

It took a long while to find my voice, and in a way I think the writing on this blog that was recently shared is amongst the best I ever shared. It’s just a feeling, maybe you feel otherwise. I have been very inspired when I finished editing Fire&Rain. It’s quite nice. This was my trip down memory lane for this week.

Now, here is my question for you and I would be happy if you would take the time to engage with me:

What is the first poem you read on my blog? Do you remember it?

Did you listen to the songs? Which one do you prefer?

Which posts do you prefer to see on this blog? Obviously, there is a lot about me too, and short stories like Rare Bird…

Too much? No, it’s simple, profound: me. More about me can be found here: about me.

Keep in touch 🙂

under a feather’s wound

Beneath the softest feather’s caress,
A wound lies hidden, a secret to address,
Tender to the touch, yet deep within,
A pain that yearns to be heard, not just seen.

The surface seems calm, a picture of peace,
But underneath, a storm rages, refusing to cease,
A fragile facade, a delicate veil,
Masking the anguish that refuses to pale.

A single touch, a gentle sway,
Awakens the ache, a cry for a way,
To heal the hurt, to mend the strife,
That dwells beneath the feather’s life.

Yet in this wound, a glimmer shines,
A spark of hope, a light that defines,
The strength to overcome, the will to endure,
For beneath the feather, a heart beats, pure.

The school holidays are finally here

Good afternoon,

The much-anticipated school holidays have finally arrived, and I can’t help but feel a sense of exhilaration. After the whirlwind of releasing my book, “Fire&Rain,” I’ve been eagerly anticipating this time to savor some precious moments of solitude and rejuvenation.

This morning, I decided to embark on a refreshing hike, allowing the crisp air and the steady rhythm of my steps to cleanse my mind. As I walked, I listened intently to the soothing flow of the nearby water, its gentle sounds washing over me and filling me with a sense of calm. After a well-deserved shower, I found my cozy spot on the couch, ready to dive into the newest addition to my private library – Édouard Louis’ “changer : méthode.” To further enhance the experience, I put on my trusted Spotify playlist, allowing the soft melodies to envelop me as I turn the pages.

In a pursuit of self-discovery, I’ve also taken up the challenge of learning to play the ukulele. The soft tones of this instrument are sure to become the soundtrack to my newfound moments of tranquility and personal growth. As a preschool teacher, I can’t wait to incorporate the ukulele into my lessons, using its playful and engaging sounds to captivate and inspire my young students.

This is a time of boundless possibilities, and I am the architect of my own remarkable journey. I will cherish these moments of solitude, for they are the fertile ground upon which my next chapter will blossom. The words of Édouard Louis, the melodies of the ukulele, and the familiar tunes from my playlist will undoubtedly inspire me to embrace the transformative power of change and the beauty of the present moment.

The journey has only just begun, and I can’t wait to see where it takes me. Just like me, let the magic of literature and music guide you.

And if you need some literature, my poetry collection is waiting for you to read it.

Enjoy your Thursday

unwritten dreams

Did I write or did I sleep?
Did I dream the words you'll never see?
Thoughts that danced across my mind,
Captured in the depths of memory.

Ink on paper, a silent plea,
Yearning to convey what's in my heart.
But the words, they slip away,
Leaving me to wonder, did I part?

With the veil of sleep, they disappear,
Fading like the morning dew.
Did I craft a story true?
Or was it just a dream, through and through?

The passion burns, the embers glow,
Igniting a fire within my soul.
To write, to express, to let it flow,
But the elusive words, they never unfold.

Did I write or did I sleep?
The mystery lingers, deep and profound.
A dance of dreams, a wordsmith's keep,
Where the unwritten lives, forever bound.

i am the storm

I am the storm, the raging gale,
Unleashing fury without fail.
My winds howl, my lightning flares,
As I descend, no one compares.
I am the rain, the pouring tears,
Cleansing the earth, dispelling fears.
My droplets fall, a soothing balm,
Restoring nature's sacred calm.
I am the thunder, the booming roar,
Shaking the ground forevermore.
My rumbling voice, a mighty call,
Commanding reverence from all.
I am the storm, the rain, the thunder
-Primal forces torn asunder.
Respect my power, heed my might,
For I am nature's awesome sight.

fleeting thoughts

Whispers of my musings take flight,
Adrift on the breeze, soon lost from sight.
If only I could gather each drifting shard,
Craft them into a lasting, final regard.
Each thread a thought, a memory so dear,
Intricately woven, a tale to revere.
But the strands slip through my desperate grasp,
As time relentlessly begins to clasp.
A race against the clock, a frantic plea,
To immortalize this ephemeral reverie.
Yet the woven work remains ever incomplete,
As the curtain descends, my heart does beat.
A bittersweet farewell, a final embrace,
As the intricate design fades without a trace.
The threads unravel, my musings take flight,
Leaving behind a void, a somber plight.
But in the depths of my soul, they shall remain.

the bittersweet paradox

The capacity to feel deeply, to hurt deeply, is what allows us to also love deeply, to find joy in the midst of sorrow, and to discover the profound meaning that lies at the heart of being human.This emotional depth is both a blessing and a curse – the price we pay for being able to engage with the world and with each other on such a visceral, meaningful level. When we open ourselves up to the full spectrum of human emotions, we make ourselves vulnerable. We risk being hurt, devastated, consumed by anguish.

Yet, it is precisely this willingness to be vulnerable that enables us to form the deepest, most nourishing bonds. When we hurt deeply, it demonstrates our ability to invest ourselves completely in relationships and experiences. The pain of heartbreak is the flip side of our capacity to love passionately.

And it is this depth of feeling – our range from ecstasy to agony – that allows us to find profound beauty and meaning amidst the sorrow. In the darkest of times, we can still uncover moments of transcendent joy, profound gratitude, and abiding hope. Our emotional complexity is what makes us fully, viscerally alive.

This is the bittersweet paradox at the heart of the human experience. The very qualities that leave us susceptible to suffering – our sensitivity, our capacity for attachment, our willingness to be emotionally raw – are the same qualities that enable us to engage with the world in the most meaningful way.

To feel deeply is to hurt deeply. But it is also to love deeply, to find exquisite pockets of light in the darkness, and to discover the profound significance that lies at the core of being human. It is the price we pay for being fully, gloriously alive.

Under Your Spell

I try to shield my heart in raging fire,
To guard it from the lure of your gaze.
Yet my efforts crumble, powerless to inspire - For you have cast your spell, ensnared me in your haze.
When you draw near, the world fades into oblivion,
Your presence, a siren's soulful call.
Helpless, I'm lost in a trance-like oblivion,
Intoxicated by the love you make me feel, enthrall.
Your touch ignites a blaze that consumes my soul,
Kindling an inferno that burns deep within.
I crave your kiss, your embrace, to be your heart's sole goal -
To be devoured by the passion I'm drowning in.
Yet a weight upon my heart, a melancholy so grim,
For I know this love will tear us apart.
Shattered, my soul in anguish, I'll be left to the brim
With the knowledge this love will break my heart.
So let me surrender, give in to your spell,
For in your arms, I find my peace, my haven true.
In this bittersweet bliss, I'll forever dwell, Knowing one day, this love will be my living hell.

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Just one more day until Fire&Rain will be officially released.

emerald embrace

Your eyes, like verdant pools,
Captivate and ensnare my gaze.
I'm drawn to their alluring depths,
Mesmerized by their gentle blaze.
Yet, I hesitate to dive too deep,
Fearing my love may not be enough.
How can I possibly give you all
When my heart feels so raw and rough?
Your touch, like summer's warm caress,
Ignites a fire within my soul.
But what if I cannot fully give?
Leaving your heart left incomplete and cold?
Oh, my love with eyes of green,
How I wish I could be serene.
To love you with abandon, without doubt,
Is the greatest challenge I face, no question.
Still, I'll try to open my heart,
To let your light shine through.
For your love is worth the risk,
No matter what I may go through.
I long to drown in your emerald gaze,
To feel your strong arms enfold.
But what if I cannot match the blaze
That burns within your heart of gold?My insecurities whisper doubts,
Casting shadows on our love.
Yet, I see the truth in your eyes above -
A love so pure, it leaves me in awe.
So, I'll silence those nagging fears,
And let my heart take the lead.
With you, my love, I have no need
To hide behind my unshed tears.
For in your embrace, I am reborn,
My doubts and worries fade away.
Your green-eyed gaze, a beacon in the morn,
Guides me towards a brighter day.

Drunk on you

I’m drunk on you, my love,
Intoxicated by your touch, your taste.
Your body, a delicious feast,
Drives me wild, makes me want to waste
Away in your embrace, your kiss.
I crave your skin against mine,
Your hands exploring, divine.
In this hazy, blissful state,
I only know one thing is true
-My heart, my soul, they long for you.
Your eyes, they smolder, hypnotize.
I’m helpless, captivated by your spell.
When you’re near, the world fades away,
And all that matters is this feeling swell
Inside me, growing, burning bright.
I need you, crave you, day and night.
My inhibitions fade with each sip,
And all I want is to feel your lips
On mine, your tongue dancing with mine.
To be consumed by your passion, your fire -That is my one and only desire.
So let me drown in you, my love,
Lose myself in your sensual embrace.
For in this inebriated haze,
You are all I see, the only trace
Of sanity that remains.
Take me, claim me, make me yours.
I’m helpless to resist your allures.

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Less than 2 days before the official release of Fire&Rain. So far, two copies have been pre-ordered through this very site and one via Amazon. How do you prefer to buy your books/music/art? Amazon? From the artist themselves?

I for one try to purchase as much of the art I consume from the artist. It’s not always possible and sometimes it is more expensive, but to be honest, I prefer to pay the creative mind… anyway… that said, my books are cheaper when purchased from me directly and there is always the possibility to buy a bundle for an adapted price. (For example, buy Fire&Rain, WORD THIEF, and Perfect Imperfection – they would be 45€ as stand alone, get the 3 of them together for 40€, shipping and handling included) ❤️