Let’s get high and high
Hide.
Let the wave swallow us
Hide.
Breathe me away
Drink what’s left of me
And when I’m resurrected
Let’s do it again.
Let’s get high and high
Hide.
Let the fantasy become reality
Hide.
Spit me out
Don’t touch my skin
And when I am wilted away
Let’s do it again.
Let’s get high and
Hide.
I feel lost
Forgotten in the dust
Buried underneath the ashes of the past.
Remind me of my wings
I will rise.
Empty tears fill a bottomless jar
I can hear the silence in the air
I can feel my soul disappear.
Hands cover my face.
Not there.
Hidden in the unknown.
Too many feelings were left unfelt
I turn into a shadow of myself after I melt…
Every raindrop on my skin
Reminds me of you
Of the sweat and its drops on me
Every teardrop kept inside
Reminds me of you
Of the best memories we shared
Every raindrop soaks my soul
The way you seeped into me
When we shared the sheets
Every teardrop shed in lost hope
Becomes an ocean
Drowning me whenever I forget to swim
Drops of us. Rain forever in my soul. Tears of happiness. Drops of you. All of you. Inside all of me.
There was a hole in my soul and you fell right through
I cried my eyes out of their sockets and lost my brain in my pockets
Now I am the queen of my thoughts who calls the shots
Addicted to filling unfillabel voids and remembering a past of being soiled.
Naked, bare. Enduring the stare.
You dare to cut old wounds open and expect me to be broken?
I will find my mind and leave all this behind
I lock your pictures in the corner of my brain
And reassure you that you never ever deserved to be my man…
Wrong looks
Wrong words
Wrong thoughts
Wrong lives
Everything wrong.
Cast them out
Don’t allow them into our circle
They will infect our perfect world with imperfections.
What’s wrong with me?
Who made me this kind of wrong?
Why can’t my thoughts be less wrong?
Will I ever learn how not to be wrong?
I was wrong for too long.
It left me raw.
In their eyes my kind of wrong will never be right.
Judgement
Assessment
A leer
A sneer.
Turn life off. This is all wrong.
For several years I had to wait,
Behind the locked iron gate
I pretended it was fate
And that you were just late.
But you never came
And I began to blame
Everyone taking part in this game
And accusing them of the same.
They kept you away from me
And refused to let our love be free
They were simply to blind to see
That there was no you without me.
Or no me without you?
Could that be true?
Could it be that they knew?
We belong together, just us two.
So I saved myself inside my dreams
Where, at least it seems
Our love was still held together at its seams
And waiting at the gates for years was not labelled too extreme.
In the dark cold night
My heart and my mind continued their fight
They argued about who was right
And who could turn on my inner light.
Time went by and you were still gone.
Everything I could, I had done
And I was convinced you were the one
So I kept waiting and realised that in my madness, I was all alone.
The lesson learned here
Might not be cristal clear
But as long as you are not near,
I will spend my time with an other, dear.
And why am I humming Careless Whisper right now?! Strange mind of mine!
Cathy
Passion? Obsession? It doesn’t matter.
In the end we will fade like the stars at the break of dawn.
We will stay memories written in the sand.
An experience. Nothing more. Nothing of substance.
I will be no one to you and you will be a stranger for me.
Just the way we were all these moons and moans ago.
When the moon and the sun have lost their meaning,
When nothing makes sense, not even dreaming,
When our hearts are squished in life’s iron fist
When our thoughts are vanishing in a doubtful mist.
Then we can chose to drown in artificial sorrow,
We can chose to ignore a sane and better tomorrow;
Or we refuse to let melancholy win
And strive to find peace and serenity within.
My heart just couldn’t decide what to do. It melted a bit because of all the love I felt. And it skipped a beat because beating without you near is not the same.
Come back. And quick, so that our hearts can beat in tune again.
I am out of breath,
My knees are scrapped,
My clothes torn.
My hair is in knots,
My vision blurry,
And I run away from life.
Until I stop.
You carry me away on your wings,
Your voice says the magic words.
I am desirable, beautiful, valuable.
I deserve your love, your smile, your time.
And the healing begins, within.
Everyone who looks at me can see that I am not running anymore.
You caught me.
Nothing will stay the same.
My smile is brighter.
My thoughts are lighter.
The melody in my heart plays louder
And the fire in my soul sparked a long lost passion.
There is no need to run any further.
I fall; you catch me.
I run; you stop me.
I freeze; you hold me.
I doubt; you love me.
You love me?
You love me!
I love you!
I cried myself to sleep last night. And when I woke up this morning, the tears were back too.
I’m on my own. Please, tell me it’s not over.
My heart is breaking and every emotion it had carefully locked in, is spilling out of my eyes.
Throw me a line. Please, tell me it’s not over.
I was never afraid of the dark.
But then you stepped into my life.
Now I am scared shitless that the light you are will fade.
I never carried a lot of light.
But you are there now.
And I am scared that the dark will come back to claim me.
I knew darkness.
I am scared of the unknown.
reflections of an unquiet mind 