I have the most horrible handwriting 😉
What I am for you
The flame that heats your frozen heart
The thought that brings you through the night
The stars that guide your way in the dark
The song that keeps your soul alight
The shoulder you lean on
The ear you whisper into
The love of your life
The one who fits profoundly
… That’s who I am to you.
(Or the one I want to be for you)
Take away my fear
I wish you were here to take away my fear
Knowing that you are just around the corner
A touch and a swipe on the screen away
Today, I need you to be here in my ear
I need to hear your voice, your words
Just for me and for you; you and me and you
Your guidance would help me through this struggle
Giving away my thoughts and my control
I feel this mind is losing a battle again
But I don’t dare to get in touch with you
I can’t burden you with my egoism
But…
I wish you were here to take away this fear
Still in love with you
Sore
Thoughts.
Invisible
Lines.
Lovesick.
Inner light
Never bright.
Little known truths
Of love. Loss.
Vulnerable. Almost unbearable.
Empty heart. Heartbroken.
Words lick my skin
Inside. Craving the sin.
These truths became fantasies
Heaven weeps. Lost minds?
Yielding strength. We gave up.
Old wounds become new scars.
Untouchable thoughts. Forever hidden memories.
(Dedicated to my best friend who passed away two years ago. He shared the Thin Lizzy song “still in love with you” with me one night. (Sharing music was our thing.) I listened to that song earlier and that’s what inspired this poem.)
Hurt
One leap and
You’ll be free
But you fear the hurt
The hurt you’ll feel
The hurt I’ll feel.
If we changed directions now
Into the future, away from the past?
But I fear the hurt
The hurt I’ll feel
The hurt you’ll feel
You will not leap
I will not jump
Together, we fall
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Awoken by the sound of a dropping eyelash
Floating to the pillow, loaded with memories
A puff of sleeping breath prolongs its journey
Hiding it from the world; making it disappear.
holes
There are holes in the ground
Fill them with the debris of our love
Scattered fragments of our souls
Floating in a sea of tears.
This was not what we signed up for
Emotional baggage bringing us down.
Hauntingly whispered ditties ring in our ears
Out of tune,
Lost synchronicity
And what remains of who we were lies buried in the ground.
Hurricane
Hush little sweetie…
Under these covers we hide;
Ready to experience our secret desires.
Raw and feral lust overtaking –
Inside of me everything is overheating, pulsing
Continuous moans whispered in heat
Ah… Don’t stop the waves from flooding my body.
Night and day and dark and light
Everlasting lust ties us together in this hurricane love.
the road
I’ve been on this road for many years
Trying to forget all those tears.
And in the deepest low
Behind the darkest glow,
Hope was always hiding
A light was always shining.
I’ve been on this road, walking endless miles
Ignoring the past’s echoes and its cries.
And as I stopped and sat down
It took me a moment to understand that there were new friends in town.
My restless travels and my frantic searching were in vain
This was where I wanted to be stayin’.
I’ve been down that road so many times
Creating stories and words in my minds.
And in the shining sun
When I felt like I needed to run,
I found solace in my broken thoughts,
Tying together their fraying knots.
But this is not the end of the road,
This traveler’s pace has just been slowed.
Soaking in the beautiful landscape
Even the one that was manmade.
Just resting my weary eyes
And listening to the path the soul takes when it flies…
Spirits in need near the edge of lust
Spirits in need
Under crumbling bridges.
Bring back whatever it is you stole;
My love, my lust, my gentle touch.
Iridescent stars light the way
Shining on – and guiding our lost minds.
Souls meeting in silent understanding,
Intuition tells us what we need to do.
Our selves lose importance
Near the edge of lust.
(could this poem be an acrostic?! Yes, maybe, certainly, it is!)
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Leaves dancing in the rain
Sun licking the morning dew;
Reflections in the window pane
Grey skies turning blue.
Behind a concealing mask
Feelings are an uncomfortable mess,
To understand is an unbearable task
And it’s easier to leave than to stay, I guess.
Toxic thoughts and actions;
Driving so-called friends away
Understanding their reactions
But missing them forever and a day.
More light in the dark
More tears in an ocean
Another life’s mark
Overcome by emotion.
A head full of spinning thoughts
Cowering in the corner of my mind
To unfurl their knots.
Once again, I am left behind.
A soap bubble of for never
Floating up to the clouds
A memory to stay forever
Hidden from the crowds.
I am the shadow in my light
I am the hope in my despair
But after my lastest sleepless night
I can say that I am still there.
Please, don’t disappear
Pure lust
Left our hearts bleeding
Ends came too soon
And I keep wondering if I bruised your
Soul more than I will ever know.
Everything happened too fast.
Did we play a game and lost
Or did we fall and failed to be caught?
Not you me? Not me you?
Talk to me!
Dreams were shattered
Ice cold water drenched us from within
Seldom did I feel this protective and worried
And I want you to be here
Please, don’t disappear.
Pounding hope, inside
Eyes filled with fear.
And I wish I could
Reach out to make you see they way I see.
Fragile
Wrapped in a blanket of tears
It came without warning
And makes no sense at all.
The guitar is bleeding
And the ink is drowning in a well
So many untold secrets.
Tighter
Again
Again
Where have all the voices gone?
Maybe they found the noose?
Because nothing was ever enough.
Woven memories that we don’t remember
What are we looking for?
Decaying thoughts with no meaning.
Higher
Again
Again
Do we want more?
We want less
Of everything. Of us.
Our footsteps are blown in the wind
Dust and forgotten souls
We are dragged forward to meet our final day.
Wider
Again
Again
The wings of our souls are spread
Reaching but never quite touching the other within
Endless tries to connect.
Reasons ceased to exist a long time ago
Hollow shells wandering hand in hand
Turn into lightening in the sand.
I see hell
my own
Almost illegible scribble 😀
reflections of an unquiet mind 