boundless love

You thrive within my spirit,
A beacon that lights my path,
I seek none but you,
For you are my hearth.
Our destinies entwined,
Crafting life’s unique art.

Your whispers in my silence,
Fuelling a fire of deepest trust,
I long for none but you,
For you are my must.
Reviving dormant hopes,
With you, love is just.

You dwell in my essence,
Calming tides of former strife,
I hold none but you,
For you are my life.
Illuminating our journey,
Our love cuts like a knife.

You are the pulse of my existence,
In your hold, I find my force,
I adore none but you,
For you are my course.
Sweeping away uncertainties,
With you, I have no remorse.

You are the dream I cherish,
A love that knows no ends,
I love none but you,
For you are where my heart bends.
In your embrace, I find my calling,
Forever, on you, my soul depends.

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poetry – 157 words – reading time: 1 minute

ghosts in our home (new poem)

A breath in the night sky,
Cool and quivering like a lover’s sigh,
Once every few moons,
Our spirits kiss,
Tender and warm, a fleeting bliss.

Covering our souls
Like rain; with love,
Soft droplets caressing from above.

We remember past words,
Whispers under our skin,
A tactile memory, thin and worn,
And oak trees in the storm,
Their rough bark groaning, forlorn.

Fast fingers and slow minds,
Drunk with passion and wine,
The tang of berries on our tongues,
Sweet and heady, as we clung.

Let us float on dreams,
On the scent of night-blooming jasmine streams,
Until we reach our destination,
As ghosts in our home,
In the silence, our love’s quiet exclamation.

Now, with every twilight’s embrace,
We dance to the silent songs of the cosmos,
The air vibrating with our unspoken hymns,
Entwined in the waltz of the forgotten,
Our laughter, a symphony of spectral whims.

In the quietude of the dark,
When shadows play on the walls,
Our love rekindles the flame,
A gentle glow, the softest balm in the hearth of eternity.

Through the window of the soul,
Glimpses of eternity flicker,
As we trace the constellations,
Our fates written in stardust and moonbeams,
A visual feast for the heart’s contemplations.

So let the night envelop us,
A cloak woven from the threads of yesteryears,
For in the heart of our abode,
We live on, timeless and serene,
As ghosts in our home, forever unseen.

Beneath the silvered veil of the moon,
Our silhouettes merge, an ancient rune,
Cast upon the walls, a shadow play,
Telling tales of love, in an ephemeral ballet.

The stars, our audience, twinkle with delight,
As we spin stories in the fabric of the night,
Each movement a brushstroke in the sky’s vast canvas,
Our love, the palette from which all hues amass.

In the garden, where the wild roses grow,
Their petals spread like blush on snow,
The night air carries their sweet perfume,
Intertwining with our essence, in the gloom.

And there, by the willow’s weeping grace,
Our fingers touch, a delicate lace,
The fireflies dance, a luminous spree,
Witness to our love’s quiet symphony.

With every dawn, our forms may fade,
But in the twilight, our colors cascade,
For in this place we call our own,
We paint our love, in tones unknown,
As ghosts in our home, forever shown.

As seasons cycle, from spring to winter’s chill,
Time’s relentless march, against our still,
Yet within these walls, our moments defy,
The ticking clock, as centuries fly by.

The laughter of children, once filled the air,
Now whispers of joy, linger in despair,
The echoes of footsteps, a rhythmic beat,
Now silent, in time’s unyielding defeat.

But here we stand, amidst the flow,
Of hours and days, we used to know,
Our love, a constant, through the sands,
Of time, held firmly in our hands.

For though the world outside may age,
Our story’s written on an endless page,
In this house, where memories roam,
We are eternal, as ghosts in our home.

And yet, the heart does yearn,
For the touch that will never return,
The voice that whispers no more,
In the quiet night, it’s what we adore.

The longing, a river deep and wide,
Flows through the chambers where we hide,
A yearning for the past, so sweet,
Where love and loss, in silence meet.

In every corner, a memory waits,
A longing for the opening of the gates,
To the days when laughter was shared,
In this home, where we dared.

To love, to live, to hold on tight,
In the face of time’s relentless flight,
Our longing, a testament to what was,
In this home, where we pause.

To feel, to remember, to embrace,
The love that time cannot erase,
For as long as this house shall stand,
Our longing, hand in hand,
With the ghosts of our home, forever grand.

The scent of old letters, yellowed and frail,
Carries the ink of our tale,
A fragrance of time, sweet and sour,
In our hands, it blooms, a delicate flower.

The sound of a distant melody,
Plays softly, a forgotten rhapsody,
A tune that stirs the soul, deep and profound,
In its notes, our longing is found.

The sight of an empty chair, by the hearth,
Speaks volumes of absence, a silent mirth,
Its fabric worn, by years of wait,
Holding the shape of our shared fate.

The taste of tears, salt on the lip,
A reminder of love’s final trip,
Bitter and true, they fall like rain,
In their path, our longing remains.

The touch of a breeze, through an open pane,
Whispers of presence, amidst the pain,
A caress from the past, gentle and slight,
In its wake, our longing takes flight.

For in this home, where echoes resound,
Our spirits linger, forever bound,
In every sense, our longing thrives,
As ghosts in our home, through countless lives.

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poetry – 819 words – reading time: 4 minutes

moonlit streams (new poem)

As dusk descends and the world grows still,
I dance with whispers, night’s crown my thrill.
The shades beckons, my soul’s intent keen,
To paint my dreams with hues unseen.

In twilight’s domain, where fantasies dwell,
I find my comfort, my haven, my well.
With imagination’s brush, free and untamed,
A work of art from a heart unclaimed.

Under starry arches, I seek and retrieve,
In tranquility, my essence begins to weave.
Old wounds, now stories of valor and fight,
Mended by starlight’s soft, healing light.

Dreams take flight on moonlit streams,
A free bird in the realm of dreams.
With every breath, in night’s tender clasp,
I glide through dreams with a boundless grasp.

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poetry – 115 words – reading time: 1 minute

Flashback memories (new poem)

Flashback memories
are keeping me awake at night
I forgot
to remember you
I forgot
how you made me feel
So free. So loved.

Fingers painting
echos of the past on my soul
So real
I can almost taste you
So real
I can almost feel you
On me. In me.

Forever feelings
visiting uninvited in my dreams
I long
for those simple moments
I long
to go back where we were
unaware. Just us.

Purpose (new poem)

And if one day I cease to exist
If all that is left of me
Is my ghost in your dream.

The autumn rain showers me in gold
But what does it mean?
I could never even know.

I am not really here,
Then again, maybe I am.

An invisible string
Is carrying me to you,
You know it better than I do.

I am not perfect
Filled to the brim with flaws,
Is that who you love?

You know there is desire,
Burning purple and red
It keeps us hidden in bed.

I want to be where you are
With you, I want to breathe
Until the tears are buried.

I am not mad, just a little sad
I fear to be forgotten,
But I recently understood one thing:
My soul's destiny is to always be here.

❤️💜🩷🤍🩶🖤🤎💙🩵💚

It’s my 41st birthday. A while ago, (years ago), I didn’t even believe I could or would make it that far. Last year, I threw a big party for myself. It was the release of WORD THIEF too. I liked it, but this year, I don’t want to celebrate. There is work and other things that seem to be more important and honestly, it’s a bit frustrating that my birthday (a day that I give more importance than I should) will not be important or celebrated; but I am 41 now. I am not a child. It will be okay. And it will be a nice day…

Lots of love from me to you. I love you all. Bring music 🙂 Cake is not a must 🙂

By the way… There is a big transformation happening with me now. Yesterday, I turned from a Cathypillar (caterpillar) into a butterfly.

That’s my backside

fire and rain (new poem)

500 miles and more
I feel it in my very core
I see it in the moon
We will be together soon.

Whatever you need
Just plant the right seed
I will be waiting in the shadows
Hidden where my light glows.

Come out of the dark
Follow the lit spark
Seek comfort in my feathers
Take shelter from the stormy weather.

There is no rhyme in this song
And I could be all wrong
(but) Dormant like the snow in spring
Lies the thought that I could be your everything.

I am fire and rain
I am blood and pain
I am freedom and captivity
I am your creativity

I am soil and flowers
I am seconds and hours
I am sanity and madness
I am letters and sadness

I am smoke and dust
But above all
I am love and lust.








False Strength (poem)


In my hands I hold the shards of my broken inner child
They cut my skin and make me bleed
They catch the light and shine my way
Some days it hurts too much to give in to iridescent memories
Other days those memories come over me like a thief from an ambush
I don’t feel myself or do I feel myself too much?
Who dares to uncover the truth?
Damaged pieces of me are rotting away in my soul
But the flowers in my heart hide the stench rather well.
No one will ever know the extent of my crimson wounds
I will not tell, and you will never see.
Everything is alright. Everything is fine. Always.

if I had a question (poem)

if I knew how to colour the wind, which colour would it be?

if I could hear the moon’s serenades, how would they sound?

if I could feel your touch on my skin, how would it feel and where would it be?

if I tasted the sun, would it defrost my frozen heart?

if I smelled your thoughts, would they smell rotten or of my favourite perfume?

if I swallowed the rain, would I drown in my tears?

if I kissed your fingertips, would they write a lovesongs for me?

if I counted the stars, would I know how many dreams are left to dream?

if I looked into your eyes, would I see the truth?

if I breathed into you, would I be able to heal the holes in your mind, in your heart, and in your soul?

if I believed in us, would we exist?

if my wings were without feathers, would you carry me up to the clouds?

if I was hidden in the shadows, would your candle light my way?

if was who I am, would you dare to be who you are?

if nothing matter, would we be an exception?

if I forgot who I am, would you remind me?

if I floated in falling leaves, would you protect me from the inevitable fall?

if I couldn’t speak, would you understand what I mean?

if this was all I had, would you share it with me?

if I loved you unconditionally, would you forgive my eccentricities?

if these were my last words to you, what would you say?

Stay? Go away? I love you anyway?

Lovers under the moonlight (2020)

Butterfly feelings in my chest 
Stains on my satin soul 
Rain in a bottle 
And I am coming undone.

I cannot sleep again 
Your pieces in me 
Screaming and kissing 
Make me feel good!

Twisted ropes around my thoughts 
These words don't work 
I lost you on the other side of the screen 
Always too far.

Hidden in my bedroom 
This is not me 
Layers of shadows 
Reasons for light.

You are a breeze on my skin 
Protecting me from the voices 
Waves of emotions 
Exploding fireworks.

Gone in sin 
Follow me into the night
Sweating and swearing 
Pretend you don't have a choice.

Magic pull 
Burning fires 
Tonight there are no liars 
Only lovers under the full moon.

Keep Talking!

Keep talking!

But how, when there is no voice in my throat? When there is no sound on my tongue? How can I speak about the past demons visiting me at night when I don’t know how to explain what they did?

Keep talking, I’ll lose all respect for you if you don’t!

I don’t want you to lose respect for me. But I cannot change this. I cannot. And I am suffering from the words that never leave my mouth and the thoughts that haunt my dreams.

Keep talking!

Keep talking!

But I am coursed to stay trapped in my wordless and mute world.

dark is the night

I wake up with my sheets soaking wet from another bad dream

Promises that were all broken

Hearts that went missing in the desert

The shackles of the past left me with visible scars

Damages that can never be undone

Tree high wishes in green and orange and yellow

A faceless man grabs my face, kissing my eyes

Eating my soul from within

Let me out let me out let me out

But I am trapped in the dark of the night

A bird’s song pulls me out of my slumber

Panting, gasping – falling down the river

Forgotten; everything is forgotten once I open my eyes

Everything, except the feeling lingering on my skin

love me or hate me

If you hate me then that’s how it must be. But please, don’t hate me because you don’t know how to love me. Hate me for the right reasons, and for the things we cannot change. Hate me as much as you would love your soulmate. Or maybe, love me. For what it’s worth, love me. Yes, love me. Because hate is such an ugly word. And your thoughts are beautiful.

Your beautiful mind and your fragile thoughts often collide inside your chest; I know it well. I’ve seen it happen. Hate and love are closer intertwined in your world than you care to admit. But it is okay. You are allowed to love me. I will not hurt you, I promise.

If you love me, then that’s how it must be. But love me for the right reasons. Love me because without me your chest is empty.

Feel something true and real, the way you make me feel it too.

Rain

The rain falling
down on my pillow
plays a
comforting symphony of
repentance
in
my dreams.

Don’t go

I offer no tears
And
No burning skies

I offer no sadness
And
No weeping willows

After you’re gone
Only silence will be
After you’re gone

No one will see
Me cry
No one will know
My pain

After you’re gone
Only silence will be
After you’re gone

1-2-3

I am looking at the stars, counting every bright light in the sky. I watch the moon and dream myself away. Lightyears. Darkseconds. I am tired tonight unable to follow my nightmares. And I keep counting streetlights and stars. I keep watching the moon, asleep every moment when I am awake.

✨🌙

My poetry often doesn’t make sense at first glance, and it rarely is what you think it is. Make the interpretation your own; I only write the words, you give them life.