I am restless, my legs are restless, moving all the time. RLS. And my mind is tired. Very tired. But not in a bad way.

Most things I am feeling these days are more or less positive. but I also feel myself being sucked into my old patterns. I am fighting tooth and nails.

I wrote at length about new jobs and new challenges and fear associated with it. I went back to the company I left in early 2021. Actually, I had not worked there since November 2020, because of sick leave and my shoulder issues and all. So, I went back this year but I don’t work at the nursery anymore. Now I work with kids 7-12. And I like it a lot. At first, I was afraid of the unknown and was not sure if this was for me. Add to this that the team at the nursery thrashed the team working with older kids all the time. To say I was scared is an understatement. But now, I have been there since mid-September and I like it a lot. There is so much laughing, it was never like that at the nursery. There is no rivalry, just working hand in hand and helping each other. It was never like that at the nursery. And I do prefer this new job a lot, because of it. We are laughing and joking, but we also work our butts off to cover for people who are not showing up.

Today, I was asked to cover a shift at the nursery. Of course I said yes. I am not wired to say No when I am asked to help out. Anyway… The work with the babies was fine, but I am quite certain that I don’t want to go back there full-time. There is a time for everything, and right now… I don’t see myself at the nursery anymore.

Ah well… The positivity at the new place really feels nice and I found my place in the team too, i think.

I don’t want to and ever will speak ill of a previous work… But I am also understanding and embracing when it is time to move on.

And as much as I held on to the job at the nursery, today, I understood that I long moved on and have no real want to go back.

I am content where I am. It’s more than many people can say.

Big hugs and lots of love…

Happy Tuesday and Happy 40th Birthday to one of the coolest people I know: Misch!