Sing me to sleep. Bring me a dream…

Worst words that were ever spoken to me:

“Who cares? I don’t.”

“You are a waste of skin.”

Both sentences aren’t nice to hear. I heard the second one all through my childhood and my adolescence. The first one was uttered not that long ago. It stings. It makes me delete many many words I write. Because the idiot voice in my brain keeps repeating “who cares?”.

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Best words that were ever said to me:

“As long as there is cum in my balls and a brain in my head, I will never forget you.”

“I love every inch of you.“

I can’t really explain what these words do to me, but I have a deep appreciation and gratitude that I was able to touch people in such an intense way. Yes, the first statement is crude; but for me, it is very romantic. And the second statement just makes me very happy.

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I can’t sleep. I have a headache (again). In 4,5 hours, my alarm will wake me up to go to work.

My mood is good. Serene. Calm. Happy. Feeling this way is so alien to me that I have to share it. I am not always an emotional wreck after all. Who would have guessed? And who cares? In the end, no one truly does, do they? And yet, every emotional exhibitionist wants to be seen and loved.

Sing me to sleep. Bring me a dream…