sinking in a sea of memories

I swore I wouldn’t cry

I swore I’d keep the tears at bay

pretending to be all cried out anyway

but there you are

so familiar

pulling me under

in a sea of dreadful memories

I’m not sleeping

I’m thinking

sinking

let me go

set me free

allow me to burst this bubble full of agony

stay away from me

until I am ready, to call you back to me