don’t let me die

(just now, I was searching for an older document and was rummaging through boxes that were never unpacked, since I moved for the first time (a little over nine years ago) and I was taken aback, when I found this… it’s powerful and sad and desperate… I didn’t even know, that I had written something like that)

 

date: 16.03.2004

 

don’t let me die

 

I’m not sleeping, I am wide awake

I can feel pain, let’s hope it’s not forsake

I tried in vain to be someone I can not be

I tried to forget the secrets, that I couldn’t keep

 

Forgive me, save me from myself

take away my knife

save me from myself

be with me tonight

 

I hurt the people that I love

and I never asked a thing to the One above

but please, don’t turn away from me

I know, in this world, I am nothing but a small flea

 

forgive me, save me from myself

take away my knife

save me from myself

don’t take away my life

 

I’d beg, I’d steal, I’d lie

but please, don’t let me die