How are you tonight? I haven’t heard from you in a while, and I wanted to check in. I am not worried, don’t get me wrong, I know you are a strong one, and I also know that oftentimes you give too much of yourself and end up empty. But you can’t pour from an empty cup; you know that. I wanted to allow you some space, but curiosity got the best of me in the end. So? How are you? What have you been up to? Are you happy(ier)? Are you depressed? Did you read anything interesting or see a good film? Have you been writing or taking interesting pictures? For a while, I knew almost everything about you, and now, this month, you were quite silent. How come? What changed? Please, get in touch,
How nice of you to get in touch; I did not expect this at all. Thank you. There is no need to be worried about me; I can tell you this right away. But you are right; I am tired. Tired of many things, but also just physically tired. I have been a bit under the weather for a week now. I don’t have much voice, but I keep powering on. And that brings me to your observation that one cannot pour from an empty cup. It feels a bit as if I am on my last sip. But that’s okay. For a long while, I felt quite lonely and alone in my life. I realised that I was not. Apart from that, I did not do much. I work a lot, and I am not happy about that. I had my first ever online meeting, something I was able to put off for a very long time. I am not depressed, but I am not overly happy either. I am just average, I think. I did not read much, no blogs apart from Jeff’s. But I am not doing a good job of showing my support. I saw a couple of movies recently; the last one who kind of caught me off guard and by surprise was “Equilibrium” (2002) with Christian Bale and Taye Diggs. I did not write. And I took only a few pictures.
I recently was reminded that idiots stay idiots and that first impressions often are the correct impressions. Last October, things happened that meant something. I met people who meant something and changed something deep within me. This October, they couldn’t be any farther away. I mean, there are no romantic feelings involved, but some friendships are not meant to exist, I guess. Someone told me: with you in my life; I don’t go under. And that meant something. It meant the world. Few simple words that I will not blow out of proportion, and I will not make them something they are not – they were not meant to be romantic in any kind or way. But those words sum up what friendship should be, at least that’s what I think. But no, not much has changed; I am just censoring my thoughts more… And before I post anything, I try to analyse if it does any good for anyone or not. That said, it could be that I share music in November again. Music is still very important to me.
Keep your chin up, and I promise, I will try to keep in touch more.
Lots of love,