monochrome dreams

In my monochrome dreams
I cannot kneel and wait
For the past to fade.
And hurricane heartbeats
colour the demons in my hostage mind.
I close my eyes and drown
in the dim cage of the midnight’s rest;
Glowing in these monochrome dreams.


Cover picture by me

Tomorrow… A year in poetry. A lot can happen in 365 days. We fall in and out of love; Make and lose friends. We can be happy and sad; On a mental high or low. All these and many more emotions are explored in Out of the Dark and into the Light. Most poems are fiction, this time. But not all. The mystery is to untangle which ones are real and which ones aren’t.
I want to thank all of you who were a part of my year last year… Who knows, maybe you are mentioned in this book?

Out of the Dark and into the Light hits the shelves of Amazon and your ebook readers tomorrow. If you prefer a signed or personalised copy, write a comment under this post, and I will get in touch. xx

Flash #28

Every day in February, I shared a Flash. It was intended to be a piece of flash fiction every day, but it got a mind of its own. Challenges like this help me to stay consistent and focused. I am tired of social media but never tired of the blog. Let’s see what I can come up with for the month of March.

I care too much about this trivial thing, but I can’t deal with rejection, even less when I don’t understand the reason. It hurts.

Fuck them… Part of me wants to shout. The other part reminds me that there is a reason we got in touch – we were like-minded people, and I rarely feel a connection like this.

If this happened to someone else, I would tell them that people come into our lives when we need them, not when we want them. And they leave the same way too. Everything happens for a reason. But it is shallow talk, even to my own ears.

Happy last day of February. Tomorrow my latest book will hit the shelves and ebook readers…

Flash #26

A crying dream turned into a smiling day. I dreamed of moments in the Netherlands and moments of my childhood. Crying with my uncle and waking up cleansed.

Flash #24

It’s that feeling deep inside that convinces you that everything will be all right. I was made for this job. And I love it. It doesn’t matter what happens in the future, I know that I will be fine.

Tuesday Song

Drife – matter now

Drife is a Luxembourgish indie/alternative band. After the first lockdown in spring of 2020, the band went to the studio to record five new songs. They will be released consecutively until Spring 2021 and will be released as an EP. The above song was the first of them and went live in December 2020.


Flash #23

Follow me, and I will follow you. I will never read your posts and rarely like anything about you. But, you know. Numbers… It is all about numbers. And it will look good on your profile. On mine too. Obviously. Follow me, and I will follow you. No matter how much, I really don’t care about you. I couldn’t care less about your account. I just need you to make me look better, more famous, more liked. And if you dare to call out my follow-for-follow strategy, I will call you fake and block you. I don’t want any superficiality on my account. Does this new filter show my good side? Like me! Follow me, and I will follow you.

I’m sorry, but I don’t play that game.


We all know this: we post something publicly, and we receive a generic comment asking us to visit their blog or profile and follow them. Truth be told, for me, it is an immediate deal-breaker. You see, I am a curious person, and I visit profiles when I see new names popping up; I also visit profiles and accounts of new people who comment, but not if they ask me to do it. I don’t know what that says about me, but I never do follow for follow. Maybe that is why my numbers are quite low. I am stubborn like that. 🤷‍♀️

Flash #22

Dear Life, can we put you on hold today? I know the answer is probably “no,” but, you know, there is no harm in asking. And I mean, it is 8 am; I have been up for 3 hours already. And well… I hate to admit it, but I have been crying for no reason already too. So, please be gentle today. Please go easy on me.