anathema – untouchable (part 1)
From the album Weather Systems (kScope, 2012)
I didn’t sleep well. A couple of times, I woke up at night, trembling after a bad dream. I can’t remember the dreams, but they unsettled me. My mind is fragile, I am in a good place, but the slightest thing could make me slip into a melancholy state of mind and I can’t afford that. Not now. Not when I can’t shield the kids from it because they are at home. And that’s one reason why I chose the above song today. It reminds me of a time when life was easier. 2012 was the best year, but also the beginning of the worst part of my life because right then, depression began fighting a way into my life. Between 2012 and 2016 I listened to that particular album a lot. So much so that my kids were annoyed with it and knew every lyric by heart. They still do. Me too. What’s more, even on bad days, this song and the energy in it brings a smile to my face and makes me move. Music is magical when it can do that. For me, this particular song (part 1 and 2 together) is a masterpiece.
I rambled, sorry. 🙂
For the music lovers, keep an eye on this blog: At the Barrier There could appear a review I wrote in the next days, and maybe there are more to come…
And wouldn’t you know? To keep myself distracted (!) this morning, I already scrubbed the kitchen and cleaned most of the house, did a load of laundry. Installed Synology and Dropbox for the kids’ homeschooling.
And still… it’s a hard day today… The girls’ break just began… we are going to do some yoga.