“They” always say: you are not alone. The truth is, we all are alone all the time and there is nothing we can do about it.
We struggle alone – as much as we wish someone would be at our side, we are on our own. Why? Because we are alone in out head and no one understands exactly how we feel.
I am an extremely empathetic person and I understand people and their behaviour and their reason. It makes me feel more alone. Because as much as I want to believe that someone might understand my oddities, most people just don’t. They don’t have the emotional capacity to understand.
Am I making sense? Maybe I don’t. I sound conceited, I guess.
It’s just, I seem to be understanding all the time. It is easy for me to forgive because I can understand why someone acted the way they did. It doesn’t make it any easier for me.
I take myself back all the time. I put other people’s happiness above mine. It is easier to accept to be hurt myself than to hurt others.
And I feel alone. Because I am too intense. Too overwhelming. Too much of everything and not enough.