I watch her. Daily. I know her routines and I know when she goes to sleep. I stand on the street, hidden in the shadows, but I see her. I see how she pulls her curtains close. Does she know that I can still see her? I see her silhouette undress. The shirt that glides off her shoulders and how she shakes her head. Her hair falls in long waves down her shoulders. I see how she unclasps her bra and I wish it would be me doing it. But I am doomed to stay in the shadows. Her nipples are erect tonight. Is she aroused or is it cold in her bedroom? I would like to taste them. I am sure she is very sensitive and it would make her moan. She pushes down her skirt and I long to see her like that. One day I will. I won’t hide forever. Once not that long ago, I worked up all my courage and asked her for the time when she passed me on her way home. Her icy blue eyes stared at me as if I was the scum attached to her Manolo Blahniks. Her slender fingers brushed the cuffs of her stylish trench coat back and revealed an expensive watch. She answered curtly and was gone before I had processed it. Her voice was deep and raspy. Really sexy. Ever since that day, I imagine her moan my name. Maybe even scream it in ecstasy. One day she will. I am sure about that. I wish I could see more of her than her silhouette. All too soon, she turns off the lights and her room is bathed into darkness. I wonder if she sleeps naked or if she puts something over when she turns off the lights. One day I will go upstairs and find out.
Why not today?
I managed to have a spare key to her apartment. I stole her best friend’s purse because I knew she had the key. It was too easy. I have never used it before. But I will today. Oh, this is so exciting. I am going to see the woman of my dreams soon. She will be pleased to see me and invite me to stay the night. Of course we will not sleep. We will be busy making love. Yes, making love – not fuck. She is my only real love. My soul mate. It’s a good thing I remembered to steal some chewing gum this morning at the newsstand. I put a stripe in my mouth and let the minty flavor take away the furry feeling on my tongue and teeth. It’s a struggle to chew because of the many missing teeth in my mouth. She will love that too. I can kiss her with my tongue without too many teeth in the way.
I am already on the right floor. How can she live in a building without security? Every creep can walk up and break into her home. It’s a good thing I am here to protect her. I sit in the shadows of the streetlamps every night and I wait until she turns off all of her lights. It’s just to make sure that she is alright.
Not so long ago, she had a male friend over. She tried to make me jealous. She didn’t even close the curtains. That’s how I know that she has white milky skin and the aureole of her nipples are a dark shade of red, almost brownish. She’s a natural blonde. She wanted me to see it and it turned me on so much. That’s how I know that she is waiting for me too. She put on that show for me and now I am here, putting the key in the lock and I am ready to surprise her. I try to be as silent as possible. I don’t want to wake her up just yet. I want to see her sleep, maybe inhale her scent. I am planning to cut off a little of her hair as a souvenir. She will not be pleased, but if I do it while she’s sleeping, she won’t even notice. I remember where her kitchen is and look through the drawers to find scissors. Her kitchen is not as neat as I would have expected it. The dishes from her dinner are still in the sink and there is half a glass of wine on the counter. On second thought – she must have left it for me. I drink it in one go and lick the rim of the glass. She drank out of the same glass. Some of her DNA is going over into my bloodstream now. I feel euphoric.
In the dark, I have trouble to find the right door, but soon enough, I find it. It’s not closed and I sneak in. Her breathing is calm and even. Almost hypnotizing. She is only wearing panties, the sheet that must have covered her earlier is a mess and not doing its job. I bend down over her to smell her. I want to memorize this moment. I let my nose roam over her body, paying special attention over her genitalia. The musky scent arouses me further and I stroke myself through my clothes. I can’t hold back a moan. She stirs in her sleep, but she doesn’t wake up. She parts her legs and her slip moves a little to the side. I am sure she did it on purpose, because now I can see her pussy lips. I am going to taste them tonight. My cock strains against my pants and I have to free it. I let out another groan when the chilly night air blows over the precum drenched head of my dick. I imagine it to be her mouth and her breath on me.
I still clutch the scissors in my hand and remember to cut off one of her locks. When I move closer, my penis lies on her shoulder. Her hot skin and her naked body is all I can take. I stroke myself faster and come all over her breasts and shoulder. Some of my release lands on her face too. She looks good like that. She is such a beautiful woman christened with my semen. She is mine now.
She wakes up and stares at me with wide eyes. I know that they are blue. I would like to see the color again, but it’s dark in here. Her legs and arms begin to flail and a frail attempt to cover herself. I tell her that I am finally here and that I understood her invitation. I sit down on her bed and feel the mattress dip under my weight. The heat radiating from her body is palpable, even through the layers of my clothes. I run my hand over her torso and pay extra attention to her nipples. Like I predicted earlier, she likes it. She whimpers and whispers “Please, please.” her voice sounds different from when I asked her for the time, but I guess it’s because she just woke up. My hand wanders further south and comes to rest between her legs. She closes them, trapping my hand over her heated vagina. I stroke it with my thumb. She whimpers again. I let my nose roam over her neck and lick it. She tastes salty and like soap. I love it. It’s intoxicating.
She starts to move more. Almost like she is fighting. But she can’t be fighting me. I love her. She is my soul mate. She pushes me away and I lose my grip on her. She plays hard to get. I smirk at that. I love it when women do that. I get closer again, only this time she slaps me in the face. That was not nice. I only want to love her and protect her. “Get away from me.” she screams and slaps me again. I start to wrestle her on her bed and come to lie on top of her. I know that I am a heavy man. She can’t get away from me now, but she catches me off guard when her knee collides with my balls. The pain is blinding me and I course. I slap her across her face to make her see sense. The more she fights, the more I slap her, until she is finally lying still. I tell her that I put on the lights now. She isn’t protesting. I guess she understood that I am here to worship her.
What I see now is not what I have expected to see. She is full of blood. Her body and her bed are drenched in it. I look at my hands, they are colored red from her blood too. I fall down on my knees and weep. I didn’t want this. The scissors are impaled in her neck. I must have stuck them in while we were fighting.
No matter how many gushing wounds she has on her face and neck and torso, she is still a beauty. I let my hands wander across her body one last time. I want to memorize her and lock those memories inside my mind. Her skin is colder than before and it is strange that she isn’t breathing, but she looks peaceful. I will miss her, but she will be forever mine.
I get up from the floor and put my limp dick inside my pants again. It’s time to leave and hide back in the shadows. Tomorrow I will see her again. Maybe she won’t fight me as much and just lets me in. I know she wants it. I pull the scissors out of her neck and cut a thick lock of her hair off and put it inside the pocket of my coat. I don’t need the scissors anymore and drop them on the floor. One last time I kiss her red lips and squeeze her nipple. I expect her to moan, but she stays silent. She must be exhausted. Quietly, because I don’t want to wake her up, I leave her apartment.
It is dark and cold outside. I see that I forgot to turn off her lights, but she will certainly do it herself when she wakes up again. I sit down on a bench nearby and pull out the lock of her hair. It’s soiled in blood, just like my hands and clothes. But it’s okay. It’s her blood and I will put off washing it off as long as I can. It’s a part of her after all. I sniff at the hair and I have an instant boner. Freeing myself from the confines of my pants, I rub myself off.
Tomorrow I will visit her again. The thought about touching her again makes me shudder. I smell my fingers, they still hold the scent of her most intimate place. It’s enough to make me come all over my pants. I am made to love her and soon, she will see it too.